Let me back up. You may not know it, but over the past 2-3 months I have felt at a complete loss. It is really hard to describe, but I have had no direction, no purpose, no structure in my life and therefore my brain had turned to mush. I couldn't have a serious conversation without crying; I couldn't make up my mind about anything; and I waivered on what I wanted to do with my life every day. It was messy.
So in the crisp, clear air of Colorado I discussed my new found plan with Hubs and resolved to find a part-time job. My goal in working again is to 1) have a structure/routine/schedule - it is very apparent that I cannot function in any other way; 2) have conversation with other human beings during the day; and 3) have a purpose. Wait. You're wondering what the purpose of a part-time job is when you still are unsure of future plans?
I know 1 thing right now: I want to finish my degree. Therefore, while I am working not only will my brain return to it's normal squishy gray and white matter, but I will also help put money towards finishing school. And as my brain starts functioning, I hope to research and find a school that meets my needs completely.
Honestly, when I first got the job, I was scared. Not of the tasks. But, I have been without a job for 3 months and trying something new is a little nerve-racking. I have had 4 days to process it, however, and I am ready and excited.
Not to mention that this job will be a near-perfect fit for my strengths.
And what is even more comforting? That God knew I would take this job. I just needed to trust in Him, and looking back, I could have done a much better job of it.
So, today I am back amongst the working. Speaking of that....I gotta get going!