Thursday, March 11, 2010

Too. Old.

I have been told I am too short. Too small. And, too blonde. But never have I been told I was too old. Until last night.

Sorry, we need someone under 25. You are too old.

I don't like that. I don't like it one bit. It only confirms what I have been telling Richard, that we are old. I don't feel old. I really don't feel any older than I was 4 years ago. I may have more life experiences, a tad bit more wisdom, and some mistakes under my belt, but that doesn't mean you are old, does it?

I still feel like I can connect with the young crowd. My little bro seems to think I don't act too much like an old person. He thinks I am cool. Wait, is "cool" still the right word to use? And sure I may be ready to go to bed right at 10pm, but I still can have fun. Please don't tell me I am old because we like to play cards with our friends on Friday night.

For so long, I wanted to be older. Now I don't want to be younger, but I would like to freeze time for a while. Since that is not an option, I know I should learn some sort of lesson from this.

All my life I have been saying "someday." Someday I will have a house. Someday, we will have kids. Someday, I will find a young girl to meet with. Someday I will even teach young women. Someday, I will organize my desk. Someday, I will love Hubs better.

Someday is here. Before I know it, I will truly be old and I would hate to look back at 26 and wonder why I didn't seize the day then, take opportunities then.

So, for the first time I was told, "You are too old." The worst part was that it was to something I told myself I would do someday. Next time, I won't be too old. I'm gonna make my somedays, todays.


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Laura said...

i feel old too! my parents would always say not to wish time away because someday it would fly by. well it is now!! ever since i got married it's been picking up speed. maybe that's when i really felt like an adult. and having olivia has definitely made it fly!
at least it's a fun ride! :)

Nikki 'Trexel' Moore said...

You said it! I am truly afraid of growing old. Even some nights I don't want to sleep, because I can feel time going by and I don't want even a single day to end. Thank you for your reminders...and I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this way. :)

Shanle's said...

I still feel like I'm 18, Heather! Sometimes there are days when I want to go out and do a cartwheel or handspring... then when I do it, I realize my body isn't what it used to be! ;) Oh... so sad... Heck, as long as we feel young, that's all that matters. Plus, we look young... we'll enjoy that when we are 40!


jnet said...

it's the attitude of your heart that matters whether you stay "young". ......advice from a really "old" person :)